[Mika has to pause and think about the conversation, they feel frustrated over the inability to truly articulate the unpleasantness of their being. The other person seems to get what they're going for which is a relief.]

Yes, I've felt like this for a long time honestly. I don't want to go into details but it's gotten to a point where I can't pretend it isn't happening. Wish I could go back to being a kid again.

[Decoding dreams? Mika wasn't versed in that particular area and they were hesitant to speak with anyone about the actual problem. They might reveal unpleasant things by accident. It was an interesting suggestion though. The next message made Mika chuckle a bit. Might be weird to mention that the "comrade" was in fact a bedmate of some months. They don't correct the other's assumption in their reply.]

I haven't slept well in weeks, it's starting to affect my work and I can't afford to make myself a burden right now.